One hour telephone interview with a very nice person. At best this person will offer me a job in which I sit in an open office during timeclock hours, receive work assignments from a software program, make changes to a software program, load the results into a software program, and check off my work in a software program.
Oh. It is good to have options. I know this.
There were two elevators in a dorm where I lived in college, one was called "Darth" ("Vator") and the other was "Elly" ("Vator").
I'd like to get in the one now called "Moti".
Thursday, November 20, 2008
OT: Illuminati
My friend M just emailed. Being fearless, and curious, she ends up some interesting places. The latest is an Illuminati meeting. When I asked if the robes were red or black, she noted that the folks wore blue pinstriped suits. Interesting. I asked if that meant there were no candles and instead she wrote that there were marble sconces on wood-paneled walls.
I want marble sconces on wood-paneled walls. And not a cheesy version.
I want marble sconces on wood-paneled walls. And not a cheesy version.
Friday, November 14, 2008
From "Being" to "Doing"
So If-I-Couldn't-Fail list came up with 11 items. I realize I've had most of this list in my head most of my life. Now it's on paper. Or at least the Internet.
The next step is to reframe each "being" wish into a "doing" wish.
Wish 1) Autopilot 250k/y and trip the folks to Taj Mahal. That's pretty quantified already. I'd like it to be a three week trip, so we can take the cool restoration in Darjeeling first and accustom ourselves to the time and culture, then give these older, less mobile, harder of hearing folks a comfortable able tour of all the sites they want to see. OK that one will be simple to determine whether it has been met or not.
Wish 2) Fear of water/learn scuba --> twenty minute open water dive with a camera to photograph fish and coral; post the photos and the trip report on this blog.
Wish 3) Personality -> go a month without panicking (ok to panic if really in danger)
Wish 4) Languages -> telephone the newspaper archives in Russia and ask for information on how to receive back issues - and understand the response
Wish 5) Writings -> publish one article of nonfiction in a print publication for payment
Wish 6) Pub T -> taste-test and review the ten most popular British brews
Wish 7) Orphanage autopilot-> attempt after 1, 4 & 6.
Wish 8) Climb a mountain -> hike a local trail I can do with my kid
Wish 9, 10 and 11 -> start with 3).
The next step is to reframe each "being" wish into a "doing" wish.
Wish 1) Autopilot 250k/y and trip the folks to Taj Mahal. That's pretty quantified already. I'd like it to be a three week trip, so we can take the cool restoration in Darjeeling first and accustom ourselves to the time and culture, then give these older, less mobile, harder of hearing folks a comfortable able tour of all the sites they want to see. OK that one will be simple to determine whether it has been met or not.
Wish 2) Fear of water/learn scuba --> twenty minute open water dive with a camera to photograph fish and coral; post the photos and the trip report on this blog.
Wish 3) Personality -> go a month without panicking (ok to panic if really in danger)
Wish 4) Languages -> telephone the newspaper archives in Russia and ask for information on how to receive back issues - and understand the response
Wish 5) Writings -> publish one article of nonfiction in a print publication for payment
Wish 6) Pub T -> taste-test and review the ten most popular British brews
Wish 7) Orphanage autopilot-> attempt after 1, 4 & 6.
Wish 8) Climb a mountain -> hike a local trail I can do with my kid
Wish 9, 10 and 11 -> start with 3).
As seen on eHarmony
1. Hello we all have strengths and weaknesses. What is your main strength and weakness. Please do not give a strength for a weakness.
Page 54, continued
So pretend I'm all golden and returned from a fantastic trip to Palau with the family and the dive photos and I am now completely at home at 75 feet depth and breathing from a pack.
See what I mean about how the list matures as you think about it?
My number one priority, other than basic competency, is to develop an autopilot income. You're reading about those efforts in this blog. Everything else is feelgood crap if it won't enable me to consistently live the lifestyle I want and need.
If I couldn't fail, I'd develop an autopilot income of $250,000 per year and fly my mom and her friends to the Taj Mahal for the trip they think they are too old to make.
If I couldn't fail, I would change certain things about my personality. I've been remarkably lucky and successful in my life despite being a really nervous person. Imagine what else I could do, more comfortably, and imagine how much more confidence I could instill in dear daughter.
If I couldn't fail, I would speak, read, write, and listen expertly in a dozen languages.
If I couldn't fail, I would submit my writings for publication and payment and earn lots of money.
If I couldn't fail, I would visit every pub in Britain and make the t-shirt saying so.
If I couldn't fail, I would put an orphanage on an autopilot income and make sure every kid had ice cream and a party on his or her birthday.
If I couldn't fail, I would climb a mountain.
If I couldn't fail, I would be a wonderful mother.
If I couldn't fail, I would be a dear friend.
If I couldn't fail, I would be an amazing mate.
Amen.
See what I mean about how the list matures as you think about it?
My number one priority, other than basic competency, is to develop an autopilot income. You're reading about those efforts in this blog. Everything else is feelgood crap if it won't enable me to consistently live the lifestyle I want and need.
If I couldn't fail, I'd develop an autopilot income of $250,000 per year and fly my mom and her friends to the Taj Mahal for the trip they think they are too old to make.
If I couldn't fail, I would change certain things about my personality. I've been remarkably lucky and successful in my life despite being a really nervous person. Imagine what else I could do, more comfortably, and imagine how much more confidence I could instill in dear daughter.
If I couldn't fail, I would speak, read, write, and listen expertly in a dozen languages.
If I couldn't fail, I would submit my writings for publication and payment and earn lots of money.
If I couldn't fail, I would visit every pub in Britain and make the t-shirt saying so.
If I couldn't fail, I would put an orphanage on an autopilot income and make sure every kid had ice cream and a party on his or her birthday.
If I couldn't fail, I would climb a mountain.
If I couldn't fail, I would be a wonderful mother.
If I couldn't fail, I would be a dear friend.
If I couldn't fail, I would be an amazing mate.
Amen.
Page 54: "If You Couldn't Fail"
To help identify your dreams, Tim takes away the limitations with the four (ok five if you count the uncontracted words) words: "If you couldn't fail"
Good thing I didn't blog my initial response, or even my first read through the book: awkward, stilting, tripping, crippled, adolescent. You may still find my blog that way :)
It surprised me how fluidly answers came after a few days of reading other things, and scampering after a dataset with elements with "different" coverage than expected.
I'd scuba dive.
Not because I actually care about scuba diving, or that there is anything under the ocean that I'd like to see, or that there is anything particularly enchanting to me about cold dark suffocating and claustrophobic places -- but because I hate to be scared.
And, because, if I blow this fear into shreds, I'm counting on the collateral destruction of several thousand more minor fears. So I'm going to atomize the big daddy of all my fears and take out legions and legions of others in this one task.
I think I know I can do this because Tim (whom I do not actually worship, yet, I just say his name when he is due the credit for a concept) advises to convert the "overcome fear of being underwater without a machine"(I'll go almost anywhere in a machine, go figure) into a concrete achievable goal. For me "attaining a scuba license" is not enough -- I've done that, it was hell, I'm still nearly paralyzed when under water. Nope. Mine is going to involve a nice warm clear water dive. I'm not sure yet what I'll do with daughter, man, job, income, time and expenses, but I now have a yardstick to show my progress and when I've succeeded.
This isn't about fixing what's broke, about whipping myself for being a coward and weakling (it's cold down there) and forcemarching myself into proper behavior. I've tried that so many times. The resulting proper behavior has limited the damage or held steady in a situation until I could do something else, but has never brought me satisfaction about where I was heading or what I was doing - and being.
This is about confronting a fear in a stepwise doable way and glorying in the expansion of all horizons when the limitation of fear is obliterated.
Good thing I didn't blog my initial response, or even my first read through the book: awkward, stilting, tripping, crippled, adolescent. You may still find my blog that way :)
It surprised me how fluidly answers came after a few days of reading other things, and scampering after a dataset with elements with "different" coverage than expected.
I'd scuba dive.
Not because I actually care about scuba diving, or that there is anything under the ocean that I'd like to see, or that there is anything particularly enchanting to me about cold dark suffocating and claustrophobic places -- but because I hate to be scared.
And, because, if I blow this fear into shreds, I'm counting on the collateral destruction of several thousand more minor fears. So I'm going to atomize the big daddy of all my fears and take out legions and legions of others in this one task.
I think I know I can do this because Tim (whom I do not actually worship, yet, I just say his name when he is due the credit for a concept) advises to convert the "overcome fear of being underwater without a machine"(I'll go almost anywhere in a machine, go figure) into a concrete achievable goal. For me "attaining a scuba license" is not enough -- I've done that, it was hell, I'm still nearly paralyzed when under water. Nope. Mine is going to involve a nice warm clear water dive. I'm not sure yet what I'll do with daughter, man, job, income, time and expenses, but I now have a yardstick to show my progress and when I've succeeded.
This isn't about fixing what's broke, about whipping myself for being a coward and weakling (it's cold down there) and forcemarching myself into proper behavior. I've tried that so many times. The resulting proper behavior has limited the damage or held steady in a situation until I could do something else, but has never brought me satisfaction about where I was heading or what I was doing - and being.
This is about confronting a fear in a stepwise doable way and glorying in the expansion of all horizons when the limitation of fear is obliterated.
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